Friday, May 20, 2005

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"
Sung By Kelly Clarkson Lyrics By Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tallI used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you,
I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Monday, May 9, 2005

Gone - Kelly Clarkson
What you see's not what you get,
With you there's just no measurement,
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there,
Your eyes they sparkled,
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain,
You washed away the best of me,
You don't care,
C/o
you know you did it I'm gone,
To find someone to live for in this world,
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight,
Just a bridge that I gotta burn,
you are wrong,
If you think you can walk right through my door,
That is just so you,
Coming back when I've finally moved on,
I'm already gone
Sometimes shattered,
Never open,
Nothing matters when you're broken,
That was me whenever I was with you,
Always ending,
Always over,
Back and forth,
Up and down,
Like a rolelr coaster,
I'm breaking that habit today,
repeat c/o
There's nothing you can say,
Sorry doesn't cut it babe,
Take the hit and walk away,
Cause I'm gone,
Doesn't matter what you do,
It's what you did that's hurting you,
All I needed was the truth,
Now I'm gone,
What's you see's not what you get.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Mood – Floating.. ahahha

I think I’ve been watching too much romantic series lately. Now I can’t stop thinking about the scenes from the series that I watched everyday.

As I am not doing everything everyday (unemployed), I sort of watched almost every single drama in the tv every day. (esp weekdays, as on weekend I tend to go out. Ehehe)

In the afternoon I watched a Korean drama series entitled “Crazy Wild Girl”. It was actually about bla..bla bla this girl work hard bla bla bla to help her sick mother and so on.. ahahahahah. I’m sure people will be bored if I go into any other details..

Well actually the best part of all was that there’s this handsome arrogant character in the series that I can’t stop thinking about. Waaaaa I’m talking nonsense.. Well anyway, I always get carried away when watching movies or dramas. But somehow I find that this arrogant character is somehow rather interesting.

Well kind of the arrogant person turning into such caring person. Ahaha.. kind of Mark Darcy in Bridget Jones Diary. But then this character named is In Woo. Well you might be thinking that I’m such a sucker for love stories. Well I agree with that. Ehehhe. Though I know that it was all just fiction. But I still can’t stop smiling when I think of the stories.

Then I will sort of day dreaming. Ehhee Rubbbish. Then at 6 pm I watched a Cantonese series. The title is “Fate Twister”.Also another love dramas. Attracted to the male character also. Ahahahahhahahahaha. What am I babbling about. Right after that at 7 pm I watched yet another Korean series; “The First Love of a Royal Prince”. This time not so much into the character. Just for the love of Korean dramas.

I am rather (I might say obsessed) very fond of Korean Fantasy Movie and dramas. Mostly, I enjoyed romantic comedies. Mostly, Korean love stories will be a bit comedy and a bit romantic. The kind of movies that you could just relax and watch. Where you will not need your brain to think of the ending.

I do watch other kind of movies too. Basically I can watch all sorts of movies. From action movies to dramas and musical. Just that when it come to love stories, I tend to get toooooo carried away.

Anyway, as I said, I’m kind of fond with the Korean dramas that I planned to learn Korean Language. But don’t know when. Maybe when I already have my own job, then I can earn money for the tution fees. So for now, I’m collecting money to buy the Korean phrase book, the one where tourist buy when they are visiting foreign countries. ;).. That’s the least I could afford for now.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

huaaaaa.... :D... donno what to say whether it is a relief or anxious feeling. Just finish with all the presentation and final year project submission..

Definitely a bit of relief as i have finish the project. although i must say it was not the best product ever. But nevertheless I have tried my best.

Now is the part where I'm very anxious to wait for the result. i really really really really very very really hope that i will pass this semester.. huaaaa.... don't want to go through all this stuff anymore... huhuu

-Praying,hoping-

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Hati...Nah, ambil la benda ni.Apa ni?Ini adalah hati. Hati aku.Hati kau? Hmm.. kenapa kau sudi kasi kat aku?Sebab kau dah jadik sebahagian dari aku.Kau lebih dari seorang kawan.Terima kasih.... ianya bererti. Aku terlalu menghargainya.Oh ye ke... tapi maaf.Untuk apa?Sebab, hati tu aku tak beri sepenuhnya.Cuma sebahagian saja...Maksud kau?Aku pernah beri hati aku kat orang lain juga.Dan aku tak pernah beri kesemuanya. Aku takut aku tiada hati untuk diri aku sendiri.Mungkin aku takut,hati itu tidak akan dijaga dengan sebaik-baiknya. Ianya bukan seperti barangan lain seperti duit, permata dan sebagainya.Hati ini penuh mistik, adakeajaiban yang tersendiri.Mistik? Kelakar bunyinya...Mungkin kelakar. Tapi itu realitinya.Ia juga berubah mengikut rentak hidup engkau.Rentak perasaan orang yang aku beri. Jika dia betul-betul ikhlas,hati ini akan indah dan bersinar.Tapi, jika dia mempersia-siakannya, hati ini akan malap.Mungkin akan terus mati untuknya.Ianya bukan satu benda yang percuma. Hati ini diberi hanya kepada insan yang terpilih sahaja.Insan yang istimewa.Dan kau adalah salah seorang daripada mereka, kerana naluri aku terlalu percayakan kau.Aku insan terpilih?Ya, kau yang terpilih. Hati ini sering bertukar-tukar mengikut perasaan orang yang diberikan.Ianya terlalu sensitif. Tapi ianya cukup kebal dan kental pada musuh aku. "Musuh", mungkin terlalu kejam untuk aku memperkatakan perihal mereka ini. Ianya tak berubah-berubah seperti yang terjadi jika hati ini diberipada orang yang istimewa.Hati aku hanya tinggal sebahagian sahaja. Ada orang yang tidak pernah memulangkannya, walaupun aku hanya pinjamkan sekejap. Ada yang pulangkan dengan penuh kelukaan. Ada yang sudi berikan sebahagiaan hatinya pula sebagai ganti. Dan jika kau nak tahu, setiap hati manusia ada nilai yang tersendiri.Setiapnya terlalu mistik!Cuma satu saja yang kau tak mengerti. Sekali hati itu terluka, kadangkala sukar nak mengubatinya. Ada kalanya, mengambil masa yang lama untuk itu.Dan bila tiba sesuatu yang tidak diingini, mungkin pemilik hati itu akan menyendiri buat seketika...sehingga hatinya pulih seperti sediakala.Hati yang diberi ini bukan untuk suka-suka. Ianya lahir atas satu kepercayaan. Dari situ, wujudlah kasih sayang. Jika hilang rasa percaya itu,maka sukarlah untuk hati itu kembali indah.

Monday, January 24, 2005

After watching Bridget Jones Diary (Iwatched it 2 times)..I can't stop thinking will there be someone out there who is perfect for me.... hmmm..well i guess people like mark darcy will never be possible. He is the kind of guy that you get to dream about..to watch in the movie.. but not real... no way there will be some guy who is soooo perfect..so understanding and sooooo handsome.. ahahha..

What am I doing still typing... just feel like telling myself that maybe even though I won't find some one like mark darcy, but eventually I WILL find someone who will accept me as I am.. Not for how I looklike.. not for what I am...



Hopefulllyy :)